☆Yo what up I’m Crook☆
25|Trans Man|Asexual/Panromantic
∙ I’m just a shit poster but from time to time I’ll post art.
∙ In this house we euthanize Zoos, Pedos, and Necros.
🎨: @/got_fleas
🎨: @/Clown_Teeth_
🎨: me
@rabid_hound I love you rabid, thank you for reassuring my brain it’s just the moments where I’m overthinking that it’s overwhelming. I wish my brain would just shut off
They say that time heals all wounds but god damn it does time hurt. The longer it’s been since I’ve lost my mom, the more I sit alone with my thoughts, the more I sob wondering what the fuck else I could have done for her to avoid the inevitable. I know it’s not my fault -
So much more. I feel like so much of me is broken. I feel like I’m letting down my loved ones by acting like everything is fine. Nothing is fine. I can lie to myself and say I’m proud of me but it’s hard to believe it when I’m lying in bed overthinking that day. I miss her.
But it certainly feels like it all the time. I should have been a better son. I should have spent more time with her that day, she kept calling me while I was at work I should have gone home. I was with her when she was terrified, I got to say goodbye but I should have done
Im going to be on a hiatus for a while. You might see me pop up from time to time but it will be indefinite while processing the passing of my mother. We were extremely close, my heart is broken but I will be okay, I just need this time to heal. Thank you for all the well wishes