mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:(

(freud enthusiast) 😁ADULT on edtwt. psych major + devoted to the science in an autistic way. lover of sanrio and sugar free soda. -71lb/??? formerly obese.

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

⋆˚꩜｡ hai !! new pinned

i'm mary, 21, she

undergrad psych student who starves on the side.
💖 pink, psychology, zero sugar soda, sanrio, weed...

#edtwt undx, formerly obese, occasional puker

priv/backup: @abrainwithboobs

adults of shedtwt ♡/↻ to b mutuals :3

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

stupid relapse with puking and can't admit to therapist. i'm studying to become one eventually. like why can't i take advantage of the opportunity to have a good relationship w my psychotherapist and tell her im struggling . why's it embarrassing

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

was supposed to be a good day. got offer to only honor society i've ever actually had a goal of being invited into. got tomorrow off. was gonna go out. i am a failure of a college girl. i cant do social or professionalism right. think my dad was right when he said id be nothing.

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

purged again. reset timer i use to track relapse . 17 days . wow that's sad. can't even fully puke either

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

drunk but should stop drinking
g so that i can take xanax again

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

i gotta stop drinking this was too much . still worse than that personally but i apologize

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

worse than being raped and i did it to myself this time

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

having chronic PTSD at age 21 means u r literally hated by ur peers

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

mind u i got fat too so its like fall if also i couldn't even be brave enough to weigh myself and instead just cried whenever i thought too hard about myself

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

sorry guys rough fall

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

sorry but i am alllwoed to say that's.

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

being fat = worst thing ever happen to u and somehow u do it to urself

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

worse than being raped and i did it to myself this time

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

if u r avoidant over mysterious conflict for over 3 days you will be sent a follow up email threatening this being referred to the dean as a student conduct issue

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

mr when i've undone so much of my hard work and for what i mean i know some specific triggers for sure and the whole no schedule over summer but fuck what the fuck how am i like. i hate it i was losing for so long and being back in one of the many binge periods feels so bad now!!

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

crossfaded honesty: i have been in the active binging phase of my eating habits since spring and am just praying i get my shit together again soon

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

i hope it's not enough for ppl to notice back at school im so scared . it's what happens i always reenter the binge phase of my disorder. feeling so trapped by it rn and yet i can't stop my self either

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

girl lays in hammock and realizes all she did this summer was get fat

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

I FEEL LIKE AMBERLYNN REID 😭😭😭

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

anyone else do this weird cyclical disordered behavior? two summers ago i was doing what i did now (eating ravenously/out of control/gaining weight), in the fall i lost weight again, gained in spring/summer bc got bf, lost the most weight i ever have in winter->summer, went to-

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

university, gained 20lbs back, probs have gained 10-20 recently, can't break cycle of overeating, hoping returning to school gives me the refresh/trigger that will cause me to shed these lbs before i reach unspeakable numbers (fall 24 starting weight).

[mary ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ is fat:( @lvlygrlsickhead]

@my_sweet_space gender just a construct anyway. the construct of ur identity ≠ ur identity and preferences in being identified as various labels by ur partner :P. hell yeah