viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor )

haiii! ‧ ₊ ⊹ 🍰 tw 4 vent posting 🐾 diagnosed ana , orthorexic 🎠 (1x 🏥) : autistic! .⁺ . 169 cm ~ lw: bmi 12.6 - cw: bmi 15.2 :c ༉ 🦄 was obese child

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

long time no see . im 43.2 kg . trying my hardest 2 gain but very afraid , just had doctors appointment after 3 months and she said im getting close 2 admission if i dont turn things around very very soon and i want to d1e! i cried for a hour . i have been so brave this past year

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

my weight wont stop slowly dropping im worried i am going to find myself in bad trouble with my doctor soon

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

i have a partner now and its been a bit stressful because they dont have a very active lifestyle but we have been making it work ^-^ they usually just sleep in until midday and i spend my morning walking in the kitchen …. but iworry that will change enventually… 😓😓

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

life has been so difficult and different lateley. i have been very stressed . always need to pace whenever i can

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

sorry im not very active my life has been very busy and i honestly really hate edtwt so i dont use it but i still am very much disordered! heh!heh! !!!! will be for the rest of my life

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

being as social has i have been is really really strange and different but i have been managing quite well!!!!

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

life has actually been really good lately^.^,i have been a lot more social , i can still do my routines and i am quite comfortable around the people i love because they know about my issues !
my mother also has to keep changing my doctors appointment because we have been so busy

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

life has actually been really good lately^.^,i have been a lot more social , i can still do my routines and i am quite comfortable around the people i love because they know about my issues !
my mother also has to keep changing my doctors appointment because we have been so busy

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

i am bmi 15.9 today which isnt good i dont know how i am going to fake maintain for my doctors appointment, i have been sick & not able to go to my appointments for about 4 weeks or something (which is crazy .i feel so free) but i have a appointment this coming monday

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

i have been a bit more social lately and i always stress out about how active ill be when im with other people so i tend to restrict my cal intake because i am afraid but my weight has been dropping because of it:( i feel so gross having my meals around others but im going to try

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

@SachaFelineCat LITERALLY ME TOO .I HAVE NIGHTMARES ABOUT THE HOSPITAL & DOCOTRS SO OFTEN & IT MAKES ME RLLY PANICKY… its left such a scar on my mind

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

I LVIE IN A GOD DAMN LOOP I LIVE IN A LOOP IAM SO EXHAUSTED FHRUYFYUIGGHHGHHHH im sorry

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

whatrgahe heck was i doing in may

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

my legs never get a proper rest i dont think

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

im so addicted to pacing pacing is my biggest & worse addiction

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

hopefully i can put those grams back on somehow idk. even just water weight before my appointment so ican start fortnightly appointments

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

i lost a bit on her scale but she knew i would, she said that i might be able to start doing fortnightly appointments permanently from now on rather than weekly appointments if i stay stable for a fortnight… i have lost a couple hundred grams from my monday appointment already:(

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

i lost a bit on her scale but she knew i would, she said that i might be able to start doing fortnightly appointments permanently from now on rather than weekly appointments if i stay stable for a fortnight… i have lost a couple hundred grams from my monday appointment already:(

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

doctors appointment today havent had one for like 4? weeks? im not sure… rlly hope that a big drop doesnt show up on her scale

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

doctors appointment today havent had one for like 4? weeks? im not sure… rlly hope that a big drop doesnt show up on her scale

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

i only use this account to talk about my mh & my ed but other than that i never rlly use this account , i do not stroll on my feed… so if i never like or comment on ur tweets im sorry!!! i would love to interact with a lot of you guys because your so sweet but im never on here:c

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

i only like my neck i dont rlly like any other part of my body my hands are okay …. 🐙

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

recent photos of my body… sssighh.
just updating my profiles feed ..i havent posted photos of myself recently ;c stupid arm flexing photo STUPIDISTUPID

[viv ૮ ˙ ﻌ˙ ა ( trying 2 gain 2kg 4 doctor ) @lycheeinu]

recent photos of my body… sssighh.
just updating my profiles feed ..i havent posted photos of myself recently ;c stupid arm flexing photo STUPIDISTUPID