Me atrevo a decir que una de las tristezas más profundas es aquella que ya no necesita lágrimas. Te recuestas en la cama y sientes que algo dentro de tí se apagó. No lloras, no esperas, no deseas nada; solo permaneces ahí, intentando existir, mientras el mundo sigue.
being misunderstood while you’re already struggling is a different kind of exhaustion. now you have to survive what’s happening inside you and defend yourself from everyone who thinks you’re just being difficult.
Últimamente siento que estoy emocionalmente peor que nunca, y lo más extraño es que, si me preguntan qué me pasa, no sé qué responder. Son demasiadas cosas acumuladas, demasiadas preocupaciones y heridas que he ido guardando hasta quedarme sin fuerzas.
no one talks about the personality shift in your 30s where you no longer want to be impressive you just want to be rested, regulated, and completely unavailable to anything that drains you
Being suicidal due to depression isn’t about wanting to die. It’s about believing that you need to die to rid yourself of the pain you’re experiencing.
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Me dicen ; tenes que aprender a estar sola . Estuve sola toda mi infancia , me sentí sola toda la adolescencia y mis peores momentos los pasé sola encerrada . Asique no, no tengo que aprender a estar sola . Yo se estar sola y es algo que no quiero
“you didn't have to react like that.” probably. and you didn't have to create the situation either. somehow my response became the only department under investigation.
People imagine being suicidal as crying on the bathroom floor.
But Sometimes it’s getting dressed, doing what needs doing and quietly wondering how much longer you can fucking do this.