listen to this, i was talking with andrew about how “high maintenance” i am because i’ve been told that my whole life and not in a loving way. in actuality, im simply trying to thrive in the hell pit that is this reality and it takes a lot more effort on my part to do that.
like lots of self care intermittently through out the day, lots of alone time, lots of tricking myself into thinking something that’s societally taught to be viewed negatively, like taking as much time for myself as i do, as a positive/okay thing.
believe or not, idc, i have dreams about the future and as i’ve grown older it’s become more intense when the moment i dreamed about happens. it happened this morning about 15 min ago and it’s still happening. lmao this tweet was part of the dream. feeling less sick tho so 👍
taking up space is difficult! being a highly sensitive person is difficult! i learn by example and 99% of the people who are of an influence in my life are not an hsp so when i handle situations v differently, it’s scary because it’s the opposite of what i/we were taught is okay
today was the epitome of life on earth. learned two devastating things today, main one being the death of virgil and cried all throughout the day but had a really really good day. life on earth is pain and joy in the same day.