This is hope for you:
No matter how dark it feels right now, God can flip your situation in a moment.
Your pain is not permanent.
Your struggle is not final.
Your current chapter is not the end of your story.
I went to visit a friend today, as I was leaving I overheard the wife telling the children "visitor dey here, all of una come dey misbehave, if say na important person come visit us now, na so una for take emb@rrass me"?
....no wahala... na me wey no dey stay one places