I’m more than mentally effected than anyone else. I didnt have my own opinion. I chased something which is against the nature. I got addicted and obsessed to it. I’ve sinned so much. Since i’m alone im willing to let go because all the time i was saving my heart.
I lost it. It’s me. I’m the toxic person. I’m a controlling freak. I fucked her up. I fucked up an innocent person more. I always let my fear push people away’ i did the same again. I like the brutal pain so much that it comes to me. I need to learn how to alone all again.