Maria 💐

16 yr old girl trying to live her best life while recovering and talking abt everything to cope 😇

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

@vanillafawn44 I think it‘s the same like before life. I cannot remember and i just didn‘t exist. I think it‘s gonna be just like that

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

Them for me😭 we also talked abt his friend and he gave me some tips. I know this isn‘t overly crazy but if you feel worthless and like you‘ll never experience kind men it really makes me hopeful🩷

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

A rlly cute guy ( sadly a friend of my situationship ) was so incredibly nice yesterday at prom. He‘s always kind and when my feet hurt rlly bad he helped me get out of them, helped me walk and carried all my stuff. He also kneeled down to help me get into my shoes and closed

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

I‘m honestly feeling so so much better in recovery ❤️‍🩹 i‘m honest i am eating very healthy ( quite obsessive ) but i find that it works best for me. I‘m starting to accept my body and acknowledge it. I also feel way better physically. I hope all of you will find peace ❤️

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

If i m not ill tomorrow idk whats real anyomre

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

I frel so sick

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

I wanted to habe something witg 2 guys so eitger one id them would’ve beeen fije but they weren’f both tgere 🙁🙁🙁💔💔💔

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

Guuuys i‘m so drunk again, we had carnival and i started drinking at 1pm and 20 min before i went home i drank litee of white wine with raspberry syrup i think i’m gonna be ssick

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

I also know that another guy, which i was interested in, is also coming but i hope smth works out with the other guy 😇

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

Going clubbing on Thursday, the night before we get our school certificate. I‘m quite exited and i hope i‘ll see the guy from the weekend🤪

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

Omg i cannnot sleep bcs of this guy. The guy, my school crush, the one i kissed ik the club. I‘m constantly getting flashbacks from the amazing was he kissed and my heart starts pounding 😭😭 i need to delete him out of my mind

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

Does anyone mind if i just use this acc to rant abt my recovery, boys, school and my life in general? I understand if most people would unfollow, i‘m just a person who copes when talking abt everything 😭

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

And that‘s when i felt it for the first time - the longing for kissing with your eyes open. Such a waste to close them if you look so pretty

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

I‘m obviously drunk and all my friends are sleepint so i habe no one to talk to but omg i think i never met someone so hot, i want to do some unimaginable things with him

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

He guys, ik i‘m recovering rn and this is such a wrong place to post but omg i kissed a guy at the club from my school. He‘s my school crush and he looks like a goddess. Anyways i can‘t sleep causw my heart is racing so fast thinking abt it. His kissing skills were crazyyyy

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

@hoshiqv Maa dankee 🫶🏻💞💞

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

Hey people, i just wanted to come on here and explain my absence-as if anyone noticed but doesnt matter😭I’ve found peace to my body and realised how messed up it is to put it through underfeeding. The last weeks i’ve been obsessing over health foods, so maybe i’m just switching

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

@yorrioso aww omg tysm 🫶🏻🫶🏻💞 i wish you all the best

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

What rlly impacted my in this decision was my class trip. We spent so much time together and i saw how a life can be outside a disorder and that kind of opened my eyes

[Maria 💐 @mariaa_wl]

My thoughts are also a battle since some of you been loosing weight so so long but i recover rlly fast which feels wrong. I’m only forcing myself in this position because i know it will be a lot harder as more time passes. I hope anyone can understand, kisses from me 🫶🏻