and as for someone who isnt sure of all my decisions in life, im afraid to fail bc i cant be too sincere in serving solely for the people. i want to ask for those already in the service do they really geniunely care for the people, for the country?
being unemployed and relying on parents after grad isnt always a good thing, bc u will always hear words from ur siblings even ur own parents of how a burden youve become(not in a direct way but i felt it). pasanginlan paka og naay mawala kwarta haha
i am so emotional these days, is it bc its the time of the month? haha i am not thinking clearly, i feel so sad but it has become a habit to force a smile whenever i cry