chase

a future written as regret | he/him | 25 | tw ed | 172cm | high sw | ugw 45kg

[chase @masclbs]

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◇ chase // he/him
◇ 25 // minors dnf
◇ high sw // cgw : 65kg // ugw 45kg

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been invited to e's house tomorrow since he has the place to himself for a couple days, which basically means I'm fasting until I see him because I have no clue what the food setup will be lmao

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life has been: something for a few months - I got thrown between hospitals at lightspeed, got top surgery (finally), and started seriously dating again???

which is to say that I ended up with every reason in the world to relapse, lol

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...oh hey, look who's back here again

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anyway!!! my birthday is in a month and I want to lose 10kg by then otherwise I might actually implode (10kg would put me at a lw too like COME ON I NEED THIS)

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she asked what I'd been doing for the wl and i had to come up with some nonsense so I wouldn't immediately go "I literally haven't eaten in 3 days and force myself to walk 20km a day"

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okay so i met up with an old coworker for the first time in a few months and she took one look at me and went "wtf you're like a different person" 🫣 apparently folks from that job have spotted me around town and been talking about it too, thats gotta be a joke right?????

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i always forget this acc exists but hhhh people are starting to make comments about the wl because of one group photo where I kinda look smaller than I really am 🫩

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getting hit with the "i could definitely pick you up" from some folks I've been casually seeing is,,,,new and wholly unrealistic but I'm choosing to see it as a win

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i always forget this acc exists but hhhh people are starting to make comments about the wl because of one group photo where I kinda look smaller than I really am 🫩

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had to break my fast yesterday because I got way too woozy for a split second and folks at work worried 🫩 but its fine because it didnt turn into a binge and I'm just gonna go again

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went out to see some old friends last night (they haven't seen me since december) and got hit with the "You lost weight?!" and "you look fit" combo out if nowhere 😳 insane motivation boost icl

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update: I need my brain to shut up about food oh my fucking god (almost halfway though)

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also why is my feed all uk edtwt posts now WHERE DID YOU LOT COME FROM HI????? I'M NOT ALONE OUT HERE?????

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locking tf in for the week wish me luck

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like yes I know that logically there *is* a difference and I fit into smaller clothes now etc, but i can't see a fucking difference in the mirror and I'm too embarrassed to take photos of myself to check that way

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officially 50lbs down and yet i can't see any difference visually what the fuck man

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I will say that despite still being massive I've made the horrifying discovery that half of my 'nice' clothes are way too big now and I need to punch more holes into my belts 😭 replacing my leather stuff is gonna be so expensive fml

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end of November vs end of March 😭

still fucking massive but over 3 stone down so I'm trying to see that as a small win

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I've been travelling and spending a fair bit of time with other people/on dates so unfortunately had to eat more than i wanted recently 🫩 have to remind myself that measurements are just as important as whatever number the scale throws at me lol

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oh my god I forget to use this acc so often but GOD what a week (or two or five idk) its been