eli cat

22 🪷 been on edtwt for 4 years - new acc

[eli cat @matchacat04]

skyr bowl with matcha chia pudding + lots of fruits

[eli cat @matchacat04]

@b094e10155bb433 hiiii

[eli cat @matchacat04]

i miss having active moots on twt and friends to DM with. like let’s send each other body checks and meal pics and fast togetherrrrr 😭💔 !!!

[eli cat @matchacat04]

omg i woke up and chose violence against my body today. ate so much sugar like whyyyyy do i do this

[eli cat @matchacat04]

i’ve really been making lots of progress feeling supa good since i moved out of my moms house. i have total control of everything i eat and have been doing at home workouts daily and reformer pilates 1x a week

[eli cat @matchacat04]

ok rant over

[eli cat @matchacat04]

i’ve been in hell
dealing with migraines that r making me vomit a lot. then i started getting really bad abdominal pain so i went to urgent care and found out i have kidney stones. also my IUD is rejecting and i have to get it removed asap so i went but had a panick attack

[eli cat @matchacat04]

so my psychiatrist gave me zoloft so now i’m on a well-oft combo with klonopin but i rly don’t take the klono i just smoke a lot of weed but ive just been home the rest of the day and im so anxious and the zoloft is making my tummy hurt im so nauseoussss

[eli cat @matchacat04]

at my lw my legs were pretty thin looked alright but my stomach always looked big. i already see more ab definition now than i ever did back then. i would work out constantly and only eat 200-800 cals a day but obviously couldn’t build any muscle

[eli cat @matchacat04]

idk guys i just don’t really believe in doing a low intake anymore tho. since ive been doing a higher intake like 900-1300 and prioritizing protein and exercising i feel like i look thinner than i did when i was 10 lbs lighter ( in my waist not my legs )

[eli cat @matchacat04]

i messed up this morning & went like super big back 😭 idk why but sometimes i wake up and it’s like i forget about my ed and go RAVENOUS. I wouldn’t even call it a binge im just dumb

[eli cat @matchacat04]

trying to decide if i want to do mat pilates before work orrrr walk my dog… idkkk. pilates would be better for me but im worried it’ll ware we out before work. especially cuz ive been lowering my intake and i have a small headache

[eli cat @matchacat04]

@vsdiors this has gotta be a mental illness too 😂

[eli cat @matchacat04]

tell me why as soon as my mom gets home she’s telling me about someone we knows daughter, who now has an ed. she’s like “yeah i told her mom what happened with you and she was so scared” like 😭 bro first off ik that girl doesn’t want her business shared like that 2nd ME EITHER!

[eli cat @matchacat04]

why am i built like fucking señor frog

[eli cat @matchacat04]

u guys broke milkberi in 24 hours 🙁 lol

[eli cat @matchacat04]

ok that’s all for now baiii

[eli cat @matchacat04]

making a thread of some of my fav meals bc im bored

[eli cat @matchacat04]

kind of cursed