Electricity Animated

Grad student. EDS. Anxiety. He/his/him. Animated in the digital through electricity.

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Things I will be on about in this Twitter feed: health issues, gender identity issues, academic issues, mental health issues. Lots of issues

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My advisor keeps on sending me things I should apply to. I wanna be like, "I'm recovering from surgery and cried yesterday because Zoom was being mean, could you maybe ask how I'm doing or something?"

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So, I have a biopsy in two and a half weeks, and I'm really effing scared, even though it's probably nothing. I had to put that somewhere.

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Cool, so, my uterus is deciding to be a pain. Figuratively. This could get very frustrating very quickly.

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My social media circles are so fractured that I just realized my main Twitter profile can't include my pronouns. That's a whoopsie-doodle. Back to hiding behind electrons!

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I blogged. Whenever I blog, I worry the disparate electrons that transmit my thoughts are going to whisper, "What a self-important asshole."

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TFW you pretend you're okay. But you're so very not. But you pretend because it's not as though you shouldn't be okay.

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"Borderline cerebeller tonsillar ectopia" means nothing to me. You know what does? "Is this causing my vertigo and syncope? Yes/no."

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And then having to go to class and pretend everything's fine, that I'm awake and alert and engaged. When inside I'm just in blind panic.

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I know I need to find my chill, but seriously, fuck Carle for this.

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And, hey, let's send them at 11:30 at night, 'cause it's not like you needed to sleep anyway.

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"Is your brain falling out of your skull? Tune in next Monday for the next thrilling installment!"

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Okay, doctor's office, give me test results via text message filled with medical jargon, then get fucking pissed off when I call. Sure.

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Welcome to the point in the semester when I start to take my anti-anxiety medication as directed instead of trying to skimp. \o/

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TFW it's National Coming Out Day and you're like, can we have a National Coming Out Decade, 'cause that'll work better for my mom, yeah?

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So, my brain may or may not be slipping out of my skull, which is just wrong. I don't want it to do that. And I'm kind of terrified.