what years of passive suicidality does to your brain
i can't do it -> i will kms
i don't know what to do -> i will kms
im scared -> i will kms
this is hard -> i will kms
im sad -> i will kms
my deepest darkest kinkiest most fucked up fantasy is that there’s a hospital with all the doctors I need in one spot and they all communicate and are truly invested in me and work together and figure it out and I get better. and its $35
nothing humbles you like rereading your old writing and realizing the person who wrote it doesn't live here anymore. the sentences used to arrive on their own. now you chase every word. that voice is gone, and you're the one who spent it.