It's 6:54 in the morning. I want to write this post to mark this final moment.
I finally put down my tools. The last handmade gift is done. The moment I stopped working, exhaustion that has built up over months washed over me, and a dull ache spread across my chest. I rested my head on the desk and let the tears fall silently.
My mind wandered, and I couldn't help but wonder: How deep must my feelings be, to stay up night after night and take the time to craft these gifts with such care?
Months have passed since I made my very first handmade gift. Including the pieces I just finished, I have created more than twenty gifts in total. Each one took up countless hours of my rest time — cutting, assembling, polishing and decorating, every step done with all my heart. To others, they may seem like ordinary items, but to me, these handcrafted pieces are far more precious than any expensive present. They hold my emotions from countless late nights and all my sincere passion.
I've heard plenty of words of doubt along the way. Many said it was not worth draining myself staying up late making crafts, urging me to stop and not hurt myself for the sake of a simple gesture. Yet no one has witnessed those quiet nights I spent alone, nor understood what I was going through. On so many peaceful nights, my eyes would well up with tears as I worked. After wiping them away, I just couldn't bring myself to stop, determined to perfect every little detail. The weariness of staying up late, the loneliness of being alone, and the frustration of being misunderstood are all hidden within these gifts. I've come to realize that some heartfelt feelings can never truly be felt by others, and in the end, we have to carry them alone.
Tired as I am, I have never regretted a single bit of what I've done. I pay no mind to what others think of my persistence. After all, the most valuable thing between people is never money, but time. Devoting your time willingly means so much more than any material possession.
My wish is simple. I only hope that the second you open these gifts, you feel even a moment of joy and delight. That would be more than enough for me. Jayna, please know that there is someone out there who loves you wholeheartedly and unreservedly. No matter how small my gestures are, no matter how far apart we are, no matter if no one understands my persistence, I do it all gladly. I wish you will always be surrounded by kindness and tenderness, shining bright and free forever. These handmade gifts stand for my love, which will quietly stay true through every passing year.
I know staying up late for so long has taken a toll on my health, and my body and mind are worn out. So I have made up my mind: this is truly the last handmade gift I will ever make.
All the hardships fade into gentle affection now. Countless words boil down to one sincere confession: Jayna, I will love you forever.
This is the end. My journey of making handmade gifts has come to a close.
Time to get some sleep.
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