cas ⋆.˚𖦹

Collected Scabs In Lockets - Hung Them Round Our Necks Like Nooses ♂️

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

cas
he/they

pro recovery. non shedtwt dni

i like ntb and iasip and vocaloid mostly

[spiz💭 byf: tw for ed shit @trainwreckxic]

it’s kinda crazy how you can be as mentally ill as you want as long as you can perform in school/occupation. like literally nothing else matters

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

I keep spending money on food bruh im paying to be fat I NEED TO KILL MYSELF😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[Meg @megannn_lynne]

dreamt i was hired to write an it’s always sunny in philadelphia episode called The Gang Gets Anorexic. a full scene dedicated to frank trying to log “rum ham” in myfitnesspal

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

is my lunch today mealspo yeah or nah

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

i made springrolls 。173 cal

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

well guess who got a tapeworm from raw fish

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

when my paranoia tells me my food has parasites but i also have an ed so i could go for a tapeworm or two

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

248 cal
Boys love eating breakfast at 4:15pm

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

also i dropped out of highschool and started taking college classes early, im also working like 30 hours a week now cause i got promoted to manager..
i have a good life, i dont know why im so sick in the head

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

breakfast and lunch
i overate today but i had a performance final in class and then work after, so i was glad to have the energy... i'll fast tomorrow (。-.-)
i was really nauseous all day

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

i ate because i felt rlly sick and lightheaded, but turns out i might just have a tapeworm so i ate for nothing 😑😑

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

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「cas / charlie」
• he + they

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「pro recovery」

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「i like vocaloid, rhythm games, housemd & iasip」
• sometimes i post threads or recipes

#edtwt #shedtwt

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

283 total
This was my first time cooking any raw meat or fish, because I have a really bad fear of food poisoning..
I think it turned out pretty good.

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

Colorful salad
~250 total, but i'll probably eat it over the next few days

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

@boylabia i usually prefer monster over redbull but redbull has a sugarfree winter flavor right now that tastes exactly like sparkling apple cider
lovee your coord btw!!

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

why did i work out in a white tshirt after i took a shower bro i feel gross

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

hes so nice and he likes me so much and he wants me to get better. i feel so bad because i know being with me is just gonna hurt him.
i dont deserve him, im such an awful person

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

i feel really bad because my boyfriend is also disordered and hes really underweight.
im worried he'll just see me trying to help him as me competing, and i'm even more worried that's subconsciously what im doing..
i feel like i cant open up to him without triggering him

[cas ⋆.˚𖦹 @meatgirlfriend]

too tired to properly log anymore i use my notes app