If you are feeling stuck, I feel you.
If you are looking around and are struggling to be happy, I feel you.
If life feels a little heavier and you don't know what to do, I feel you.
It is absoultely okay to feel all this.
You aren't alone.
Life will not only test you. It'll call you for test, cancel the test and as you are returning, you'll enter into another portal, with whole new test. And then, you will realize it wasn't about the test. It was about you and your reaction to this whole charade, that was the test
Who are you without these academic accolades and work achievements, beyond glamour and the show-off on social media, besides small talk and fake smiles?
If you have some time, meet that self.
A very bad day survived alone with my books!!! One thing about being in medicine is your pain really humbles you and not turn you bitter because no matter you have seen people in worst circumstances smiling. So, yes I do the same.
If silence feels easier than explaining yourself again, I feel you.
If you are working day in and day out without visible results, I feel you.
If you wonder how you ended up here, I feel you.
If you feel nothing or everything all at once, I feel you.
You aren't alone in this.
The impatience my family shows, asking when my USMLE journey will end .... I find myself the one reassuring them, even as the journey itself keeps testing me.
So many versions exist within us. Which one are we really, or a mixture of all? And yet, beyond them, there is an awareness that can step back and observe it all, the thoughts, the shifts, the contradictions, everything.
Mental health begins with recognizing our agency, the quiet but powerful ability to choose and indulge. We are fragile and vulnerable, and that is precisely where courage and resilience live.
2083 knocked on the door slowly this time. It feels like an invitation to a journey of the silent struggle, quiet hard work, shutting down the external noise, turning inward alone, with a promise of the greatest pivot of my life. On the other side of the door,2083 holds my world.