at this point i feel like i enjoy suffering because i keep putting myself in the same situation over and over again in hopes of recreating a different ending
lucca just told me "bunnies would be scary if they didn't have their hair extensions, you know if they were just showing off their nakedness. what do bunnies have for parts?" LMFAO dude what
“But you survived”
I disassociate, like a lot.
My heart drops when someone raises their voice.
I shut down very easily.
I'm far too observant.
I always feel like a burden.
I isolate often.
But yeah, sure, I guess I survived.
I spent years overgiving in friendships & relationships. I was always the one checking in, showing love, making sure everybody was good & I forgot about me. Now I just want to be alone and focus on myself. I’m learning to pour into me the way I used to pour into everybody else. 🎀
randomly getting hit with a wave of sadness bc it seems that everyone already has someone else they prefer More someone Better and i can never be someone’s favorite person
depression has taken all my color from me i am just a boring lifeless shell of a person i cant hold a conversation i zone out all the time i have no interests anymore nothing brings me joy & i feel like a complete & utter burden & nuisance to everyone
just had an interaction that made me realize that my good friend/favorite person does not view me as their good friend or even remotely favorite person