mari

want to nap again tomorrow

[mari @melancholy_c]

but it would give me so much anxiety ugh

[mari @melancholy_c]

atp going for a phd is the only option

[mari @melancholy_c]

@tropiicalhoe wait i need this too

[mari @melancholy_c]

ugh i spend the whole day making a decision, then overthink it all night so by the next morning it's completely different lmao

[mari @melancholy_c]

every week my therapist and i discover something new that's wrong with me because of my childhood and we're both equally surprised

[#1 computer user @inherentvibes]

how to accept that your brain was simply formed wrong during your most neuroplastic years and there’s no going back

[ِ @anjoazl]

Dostoevsky was right, my worst sin is, in fact, destroying and betraying myself for nothing

[mari @melancholy_c]

anytime i begin to feel slightly normal and like i can think of my future my family pulls off another stunt

[maya @mayaviatwitta]

they should invent eyes you can rub without consequences

[mari @melancholy_c]

i was at the cinema watching devil wears prada when everyone's phones started ringing with the alert lol i was like good way to die tbh

[violet @4ced_]

Which moi intern accidentally sent everyone the alert

[: @sn0oozey]

I’m horrifically unlovable in a way no one has ever seen before. Like in a really cutting edge way.

[niku o.o @noqkeada]

Perdón por no contestar amiga estaba pensando en cómo quitarme la vida

[mari @melancholy_c]

:((((((

[𐙚 ̊ @ultrblvd]

― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals

[mari @melancholy_c]

:(

[❦ @thesttargirl]

when you cool with everybody

[heather 💫 @_hxneyglow]

its rly cool that other people have gotten to damage me so badly that i feel incapable of having the life/relationships i long to have & i have to somehow do the unbearable work of trying to fix what others have done to me so that i can -maybe- have some version of happiness haha

[mari @melancholy_c]

my therapist said you talk like there are chains attached to you and you're trying to claw your way out of a prison of your own making,,, had to really sit and cry for a minute after that

[mari @melancholy_c]

always so stuck. always at a crossroads. always dangling between two lives.

[dawn @rundry]

Does anyone else feel like a scared animal every day