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[Elle 💜🦪 @dooshikswife]

How Seo-in felt being homophobic and then five seconds later questioning himself if he's gay #backlight

[. @meld4d4]

@theereaderer the real villain of this story so far

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adapt to her idealized vision of a perfect family and in doing so, she guilt tripped him and made him suffer because of her own trauma, shaping his behavior, his appearance and prioritizing her own need to avoid reliving past trauma over his well-being.

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i see that many are focusing on how evil Seo-in’s stepbrother was, but it’s just as important to analyze how his mother is much worse in this situation, instead of confronting her grief directly, she projected her expectations onto Seo-in, emotionally manipulating him to +

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@dooshikswife i’m fucking traumatized

[hi 🫧 @theereaderer]

#backlight #백라이트 | ✍️

im sorry those panels of the mom seeing and interacting with seo-in for the first time make me feel SICK. you can tell it struck her really deep as she was instantly seeing her deceased son in him.

all she cared about was filling the void created by the loss of one of her twin babies, at the expense of both her surviving biological son (jaewon) AND seo-in, by neglecting their needs during those crucial formative years

jaewon seemed like he lacked affection and wanted to remain an only child because being the center of attention is something that at least gave him a sense of security. bringing in another child threatened that and made him jealous and insecure. maybe he had other issues, but the fact is that seo-in was served to him on a silver platter to be an emotional outlet to crash out on.

seo-in was still innocent and only needed to be cared for. but instead of being welcomed into a family and finally having a support system to call his own, he was vehemently rejected and bullied by his adopted brother.

he could sense he was being used as a stand-in replacement rather than accepted as a new part of the family. and it probably hurt that much more to come to that realization after being made to feel like it’d be different.

even when the mom realized everything was falling apart, that jaewon was struggling and seo-in was suffering, she ignored it until it reached a medical emergency.

instead of addressing the root of the problem, she begged seo-in to keep up the facade, as she needed the appearance of a happy family to feel better.

she allowed her unwell biological son to hurt seo-in because his well being mattered less to her than her own need to act like she had twin sons.

i understand that her life was difficult: the pressure of being an objectified model in the spotlight, the trauma of losing a child and the panic disorder she developed. but using real children as emotional support tools to fill a void is not just selfish, it’s abusive… with terrible lasting consequences.

she destroyed so many lives when with a little effort to preserve what she already had, she could’ve had a happy family instead of trying to rewrite fate by using others

it’s a miracle that seo-in was able to find a star like yeongwoon in the middle of all that darkness.

but it seems she’s against them being together and has tried to separate them before.

will she redeem herself by helping them or will she be one of those characters who stay on the same awful track from beginning to end?

[. @meld4d4]

@theereaderer i’m still trying to wrap my head around the emotional depth the author managed to explore in just this one chapter, because even though we may have picked up on certain hints, actually witnessing the portrayal of his upbringing in his new family completely shattered me.

[강또 @GANGDDO_]

백라이트 33화 업데이트 되었습니다.🐈‍⬛

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[. @meld4d4]

@shadowandligh11 it’s so nice, it really suits you 😭🫶🏻

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@sanssian rationally, i know i should wait before making any definitive judgment and ofc both yw and seo-in are gonna end up together, but i can’t deny that this preview kind of turned me off, details like these often hint at the direction the story might take, even before it unfolds 🥲

[. @meld4d4]

@sanssian i spent months highlighting that the author never confirmed anything about a lt, except mentioning that Taegu would have a more consistent role in s2.
however, the cover instantly made me second-guess everything, pushing me to reconsider my stance.

[. @meld4d4]

@sanssian i’m guilty your honor

[. @meld4d4]

how it feels not giving a fuck about anything anymore:

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@herblackcanvas it’s my personal interpretation based on how i perceive it bb, and ofc, we’ll have to wait and see how things actually unfold, i guess (?) 💀

[. @meld4d4]

@herblackcanvas i agree that the cover was intentionally portrayed in a striking way, likely because it’s already established that this season will be emotionally poignant for the two of them, but i’m not fond of the idea that events will likely follow a predictable, cliché pattern.

[. @meld4d4]

@cirruslikelemon i’m gonna stay quiet because i need to gather my thoughts rationally and see how things will unfold first, but god, i’m always right

[. @meld4d4]

@herblackcanvas yeah well, i don’t think that theory will hold up much longer since i’ve come across other posts pointing out a new tag that might lead to that conclusion, and ofc it’s too early to make assumptions, but you can already get a sense of it just by looking at it

[. @meld4d4]

me realizing i can’t express what i truly think without getting cancelled by the whole fandom:

[. @meld4d4]

@yyourgirlloves yeah, i’m dropping it