my problem is that i always see suicide as an option 😭 i could be going through a remotely hard time and i'll just think 'i could kms tonight and not have to deal with this' 💀
Having MEMORY LOSS from depression and trauma is a weird experience because people don’t understand how scary it is when depression and trauma start affecting your memory. Like you really start forgetting whole moments of your life, conversations, things people told you, how you used to act, and even parts of yourself. It’s like your brain got so overwhelmed from surviving everything that it started deleting things just to protect you.
“you look tired is everything ok” i have been dragging my corpse of a body around for years i barely feel like a person everything feels like a chore basic tasks seem like crossing mountains & oceans & at this point it just seems like im waiting to die