right so how do you move past realizing you've never truly wanted anything and lived your entire life with the sole motivation of Not Getting In Trouble For Being Bad and now you have nothing going for you
its rly cool that other people have gotten to damage me so badly that i feel incapable of having the life/relationships i long to have & i have to somehow do the unbearable work of trying to fix what others have done to me so that i can -maybe- have some version of happiness haha