I don't regret you but sometimes I wish I had walked away at the start and left things at hello because I let you become my happiness and that's where I went wrong.
A therapist said that being a loner is a trauma response. You're so used to people you love not showing up for you or walking away. You may have also grown up in a toxic environment where the only one you could depend on was you. So naturally, you only feel safe when you're alone
She’s a needy girlfriend but she's needy for the right reasons. She’s not the "buy me that" type of girl. She’s the "text me back, show me off, I want your attention, make me feel safe, come here and love me" type of needy...
What aren’t you getting? I’m not trying to argue, I want to be heard and understood. It's the principle. You didn't consider how I was going to feel before you did what you did. It shows you didn’t really love me. It made me re-think all of it.
"You handled it so well." No, actually, I broke down quietly. I lost my spark. I lost myself. I cried everyday, withdrew into isolation, felt numb when I wasn't in tears, & carried the weight of it with me everywhere until one day I woke up & it wasn't the first thing on my mind.