Let me start I recently lost a good friend of mine Sandile Alfalfa Mlambo, fairly young designer whose been a globetrotter, way maker and mostly a sustained fashion designer whose work will be celebrated for many years to come...
God once again did a number on us with death🥹
a girl on tiktok said "healing is so hard because it is a constant battle between your inner child who is scared and just wants safety.... your inner teenager who is angry and just wants justice.... and your current self-who is tired and just wants peace." and it hits me hard.
This Lady on Tiktok cleaning her house said something that really stuck with me: “Take care of what God has already placed in your hands, so He knows you’re ready for what’s next. If you don’t steward what you have now, you can’t expect more.” And that hit. Wherever you are in life right now the small apartment, the job you’re still growing in, the season you didn’t plan for honor it. Be responsible with it. Be grateful for it. Growth starts with stewardship. 🫶🏾
My therapist and I were talking about burnout, and she said something that really stuck with me.
She explained that burnout isn’t just being tired. It’s being emotionally exhausted. It’s when your body keeps going but your mind and spirit are tapped out. You’re still showing up, still handling responsibilities, still being “strong”… but inside, you’re running on fumes.
I told her how I feel drained even after resting. How small tasks feel heavy. How I don’t feel lazy—I feel worn down. And she said, “That’s what happens when you’ve been in survival mode for too long. Your nervous system never gets a break.”
That hit hard.
I just want my whole nervous system to finally rest in 2026. I want my heart to stop racing every day, I want to get out of that constant fight or flight mode, and I just want real peace. I’m begging for a year where my spirit can breathe, my mind can slow down, and my life finally feels gentle again. 2026, please be the year that brings calm, softness, and stability back into my life.