Ship Sinker

Main: @objectomenace
🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈 22 🔞
this is my EVIL alt account to BITCH and MOAN and be ANNOYING
AUDHD / BPD my life is fucked basically

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

I don't think the link in my bio works that leads to my Hieronymus playlist :/
So here's both if anyone was curious
Calvin / Theseus Ship Captain
https://t.co/L2ZO8JqDJg

Hieronymus
https://t.co/8tmh6KU7uK

[josh @joshypooper]

you’re laughing. i told you a joke and you’re laughing. i love you

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

It really doesn't matter though and i'll shut up again because like even talking about it at all I just feel annoying. I'm not really as sad right now as these posts make it seem. I'm still alive and I always am seeking to improve myself and work through my mind.

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

I want to be known and loved more than anything, but it's like I know in my heart there is too much shit wrong that I could never possibly explain and just. I am too complicated of a person to deal with. I've been through too much and my brain has suffered and regressed too much.

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

I don't even want people to feel bad for me because honestly no one fucking should. I just want my existence to be noted. I want someone to care about the things I like. I want someone to care when I am happy.

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

The trauma that i've been through, the shit wrong with my brain, everything i've missed out on, just EVERYTHING, I could never possibly lay it all out. To an extent it's not even worth it because it won't undo anything if I did.

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

And I said it before but like. As far as how I want a partner to look I am an incredibly shallow person. No one should feel bad for me. I'm fucking begging but i'm also choosing. I don't even know what my brain wants from me half the time.

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

Always always ALWAYS there is an inner monologue in my head analyzing everything I do and making me overthink EVERYTHING. My brain just never fucking shuts up and I will always talk myself out of any good thing. I need someone with a level of patience that just can't be afforded.

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

Then again, the last thing an old man needs is to potentially deal with the emotional baggage of my fucking abysmal dogshit life and mental illnesses teeheeeeee

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

As a young trans guy who likes older men but like not utter sex pests and freaks I have no idea where to even begin to look. Even just as friends to talk to bc realistically I like more submissive men and know neither of us are getting what we want 💀

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

Now the question is do I sleep, or cut my losses and try to eat and stay up since it's almost 4 am

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

And I want to be with someone way more quiet and subdued. I wish I had more money because literally I would just be out here like Gatsby adoring someone. But I am poor and in shit ass fucking America and uh... maybe still a little bit intoxicated 👉👈

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

I ain't even drunk anymore either i'm just normally this insane. I don't fuck with people my age or under 30 like at ALL. Everyone my age is fucking annoying (me included if you couldn't tell), but I genuinely can't find 99% of them attractive.

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

Like I promise i'm cute and? Maybe not masc but somewhat dude bro-ish, just also annoying lmao. I get sad seeing men who feel unattractive when they're older like I wanna watch movies with you and make you feel attractive and buy you dinner man idfk. Sorry I have a pussy 💔

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

I've tried a LOT of apps but like I was ranting about before, most older men I see just act lobotomized and should probably be on a list, or do not fuck with trans men like at ALL. The only ones i'd be into definitely don't.

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

Also I downloaded a dating app I had way before bc it seemed like a no brainer to be on it just to learn it's shutting down very soon 😭

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

Sigh I finished it and am sobering up. Smh. Also a cat was growling out front of my house (it's 3am) and my neighbor was outside on their porch like. I hope they weren't doing something to that cat?? But maybe they got freaked out by the noise and went to check like me.

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

@imuttjx I genuinely don't think any individual Pokémon card should be worth more than 40$ (20$ if i'm being so fr). Scalpers ruin fucking EVERYTHING, and this is literal cardboard and shiny foil.

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

I would love to be freaky as hell but nothing turns me off more than someone just immediately throwing it all out there and making it pretty clear right away it's the only thing they care about.

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

ACTUALLY before I crack it open I will say. I am genuinely so fucking over how overtly sexual everything in our culture is and how men are online. Like mfer what if I want to get to know you? What if I fucking care about you? And I guess no hate to people like that but GOD

[Ship Sinker @MenacingToo]

It pisses me off because it's projected back onto me. Or everyone else is expected to be horny every second and willing to fuck at a moments notice. I couldn't care less, you couldn't PAY me to care less.