I just heard this therapist say that sometimes being a loner is a trauma response. You’re so use to people you love not showing up for you &/or you may have grown up in a toxic environment. The only one you could depend on was YOU! So you naturally feel safe when you’re alone.
Please don’t spend the rest of your life convincing your love. It was never your responsibility to be adored, it was never your weight to carry. You can release yourself of that burden now. Rest.
I avoid eggshell type of relationships, can’t express yourself, can’t be yourself, can’t ever be straight forward, can’t be comfortable, can’t talk like adults, can’t be heard, can’t respond with love without it turning into something negative…