Copious and condensed amounts grief, simultaneously coexisting with life and living. The presence of all three of you, looms over me but in a dimension I cannot see
A medically subdued controlled restraint for pain management—for us to borrow more time, but only for me to witness
As iron sharpens iron,
Mirroring strength with strength.
Among the heaviest, this is my cross to bear; your gaze and eye movements to and through me
That awkward moment when a suppressed, subconscious memory makes itself vivid & conscious—
I, alone, was the very last to see your eyes; alert, alive, fighting, expressive and full of emotion
Be it suppression, disconnection, processing, manifestation, or release—despite its emotional intensity, the lack thereof suggests that the release was on a subconscious level rather than physical
I miss you telling me about how much we know each other.
I miss you justifying my late nights, and vice versa.
Hear you me—thank you for raising me in the faith, so that we may continue beyond death; everlasting, evermore.