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just keeping it real / 20 / IGL / HARBOR only till radiant

[VCT CN Posting @VCTCNPosting]

FPX welcome video for coconut 🥹

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@JTayy_ HARBOR TOO LOW

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@TrickVAL Polymarket ad 👎👎👎

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@AkamaruVal Polymarket ad 👎👎👎

[crispann @crispannn]

new season might be cooked… 🕊️

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@mikeysXO HARBOR

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@twon_val @thattreevlr If tree is tier 5 you are tier 9 BUDDY.

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Have seen 0 father's day tweets today. Why? I even saw mother's day stuff on England/NZ/AU mother's day.

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Weird that we @ players instead of team names actually so disrespectful to the sport, the competitors, and individuals involved in allowing us to play in these tournaments. GTFO, I AM HARBOR

[wozy @wozy_fps]

made day 2 mfh

2-0 @EternalFocusEsp @1mogzin
1-2 @9ENN__ @twigz_val @enzo and co
2-0 @EternalFocusEsp @1mogzin

ggs to everyone we played

goats:@NobleVALORANT @demibebanned @Ronga1_ @Koto_VAL @Rain_VLR

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@wozy_fps @EternalFocusEsp @1mogzin @9ENN__ @twigz_val @Enzo @NobleVALORANT @demibebanned @Ronga1_ @Koto_VAL @Rain_VLR How is there a cove in that situation

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@CatnappersVAL @milkteaboards @amegayme @1wlloh @Jejeeval @TrushiMC @twon_val @StaGGeRCS GL we want twon content asap

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@kiyoeval @ciiiaba @GTScrubs @mergeCJD @SythrineFPS @AyakaAyatoFan W

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@KingDonutTM Me 2... @wozy_fps

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@MattZyzz What about harbor every map?

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@47GLYPH @gentlemates We are calling

[Tyson @Zxrruu]

19 🎉

lil birthday vacation in germany

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live now using tenz pulsar mouse

https://t.co/BXDe56ZBms

harbor only too imm3 tn

[EG d1ve @d1veNAS]

you know what man, I care. Im tired of this I don’t care bull shit when things happen and you’re just told to not care. I feel like it just makes us less human. And tryna change how u feel about something in reality is just acting i guess. Idk i feel like we’re all more emotional than we seem and we get affected by things but everyone just says dont care about it. And i think its dumb.. feel what you feel and feel it fully.

[Aria @AriaDeviluke]

Post Game Thoughts

My fever is finally going down and I have a clear head so I wanted to write out my thoughts on winning and some nice words to the people who have supported me

I joined @SwimTrekBlue legit 2 days before signups for ME closed and we didn't scrim at all going into ME, we barely even warm up scrimmed. We just showed up locked and played our hearts out. I had a fire in my heart that burned with such pride and devotion to winning it all that I think it rubbed off on some of my teammates maybe.. Something I never admitted was I broke down in tears after winning kickoff and I've been chasing that feeling forever. Losing in stage 1 last year was the most heartbreaking thing in the world. Each game I put my all into it and would always crash after each game because of how tired I was, since I was legit screaming and yelling every game lol you can ask @/glowstickval about it they know how much I was screaming. I played some of the best valorant I think I have ever played on stream and I am so fucking happy I did. I struggle a lot with imposter syndrome and thinking I am not as good as my peers or as good as people think I am but this run helped determine that maybe I am actually a tiny bit good at the game. I poured my heart into playing SRG and it showed, I legit was pulling the most insane plays out of my mind and somehow still won even though I was just doing the most incomprehensible shit. After Grand Finals I was shaking in the team call and legit breaking down and crying my eyes out at my desk. @/qiparoonie asked if I was there and I responded in a broken voice "y-yeah" while sniffling. I am so happy at the fact I was able to help the team win stage 1 and etch myself into history again. I am most definitely gonna break down when I celebrate with friends at KBBQ on monday but thats okay I'll be surrounded by people who do care about me. To the people who have been supporting me thank you so much all the kind words I get messaged mean the world to me and I love it. I missed competing and I missed being seen by the people.

Some words for special people over the last 2 years :)

@melyafps My closest friend in GC thank you for supporting me and bringing me up whenever I was down for the last 2 years. Legit one of the nicest and kindest people ever in the world, I wish we got to hang out when I lived in texas

@KingFred333 I know this years been rocky for us but just remember that I legit and indebted to you forever for helping me become the player I am today. Legit night and day comparison to how I was before I worked with you

@glowstickval Super duper nice even though we had "beef" last year, thank you for vouching for me to get the slot for ME. You are the fucking GOAT of info initiator for legit no reason keep up the odin

@k0rupt_val One of the best callers I have ever seen and worked with, you legit look like prime kyrie irving out there with the way you play the game. You've been super warm and welcoming to the team so thank you and you always voice your opinion and challenge whenever you disagree with me so thank you for that

@QueenBobsta You are the funniest person I have ever teamed with, you drop the coldest 1 liners then say the most stupid shit but its amazing and I love it. Thank you for having my back and saying so many nice things about me, im glad I was able to impress you with those 2 ranked games we played even though I was negative in both of them

@1CHAROD Chamber/duelist legit always good to trade me even if I am 500 meters away from you, you just are able to slam someone and get my refrag. You are insane at the game bro please keep it up

@coachqip Legit the biggest chiller I have ever met, you're always calm and collected even if your team is being stupid as fuck for 20 rounds straight. Thank you for allowing me to play

@okijoona You are the best person I have met in a very long time. I didn't say this last year but I looked up to you like an older sister and you made me strive to be better because of how much effort you put in to competing and I wanted to be better for you. I'm sad we don't share the stage anymore but I am glad that we are still friends.

@ejmarchini You are my favorite staff/host whatever the position is. You have ALWAYS been so warm and welcoming since I started in kickoff last year and you are always super nice to me whenever we talk so thank you

If anyone even looks up to me at all in the GC or t3 scene. Keep chasing your dream and be nice to people there is already enough people being toxic as fuck, there is no point in adding to it.

For anyone I missed I am sorry but these are the people I thought of at the time of writing. I love all of my fans and supporters genuinely. Thank you for supporting me.

I know I am going to get a shit ton of hate but honestly you all are fucking poor and have nothing in your life to be happy about so fuck you.

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Question for my gym goer followers:

What is your max/rep for seated leg curl?

I have been working on legs a lot more but still feel so weak doing them.