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#N0RTHLANE /// a euphoric perpetual gaze — I taste the light of day

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

pinned 3.0
- random stuff 😼😼
- monthly weigh ins probably
- some of my threads

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

this post makes it sound like I'm going to Keep Myself Safe HELP I WILL NOT BE DOING THAT I AM JUST GENUINELY APPRECIATIVE OF ALL MY OLD MOOTS

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

sup guys do any of you still remember me 🤩 are any of my moots still around on here

I've been recovered from my ed and sh for like two years now not counting very minor relapses by my standards so I just haven't felt compelled to use this account

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

in recent times I've started hitting the gym hardcore, I've turned 19, improved my music skills etc etc a lot has happened. I hope all of you are still alive and hopefully also on a better path, thank you for making my days brighter when I was in some genuinely deep shit

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

sibling said they "helped finish" 1 bottle of wine and ended up throwing up and are now hungover how the hell r we related

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

coolest pic I have ever taken wtf

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

@lycheeeats I stay winning I'm on top of the game rn 👹👹👹

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

fattest fuck prize winner

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

why is my neck so thick😍😍😍😍🔫

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

@thk6634 I did this to myself if I wanted to maintain I would but I hate everything about myself and want it all gone

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

ok I lost 2.2kg in one full week

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

I only needed to lose 0.4 but I want to die

[LavaLampDrinker @GirJpg]

When the hacker is telling me he has my IP address but I'm using my neighbors wifi

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

like genuinely I would die without a pound of dates

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

I think I have a bilingual eating disorder I have the strongest juiciest craving for dates rn

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

@lycheeeats eh? I starved and then didn't eat for nearly 2 days I'm not sure how much hormones have to do with it per se

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

I've lost 1.3kg in 5 days. cool

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

everything is going wrong my phone isn't charged enough my vape isn't fucking working😝😝😝😝😝😝on the bus trying not to tweak the hospital thinks I quit smoking but I took extra cigarettes I will indeed be smoking

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

I'm under my projected goal weight for the 8th of october ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

@thk6634 maybe I will tomorrow morning

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

accidentally on a 24+ hour fast idk if I'll extend it to 48 because I have to travel 4h alone tomorrow and don't want to faint on the train

[nic ⁉️ JOY! @mesmerlimia]

I have no idea what changed in my brain I haven't starved this well in a long time