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βbut when i stand before god i'll have one thing to say to weigh against all the rest. lord, you gave me a rare woman. and god i loved her wellβ
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In some of the articles Iβve seen trying to crack the code to why Heated Rivalry is a success, they keep dancing around the obvious & it's laughable. Theyβre allergic to admitting that these are romance books. Folks are going to go try to emulate & miss the key ingredients.
βshe would have loved youβ is such a devastating line when you realize it implies that ilya lost the one person in his family who he could have confided in about his queerness
And seeing so many people who love this show just as much as I do makes me feel like my people are out there, I have been waiting my whole life and they exist and I just have to reach out and dare to be seen
Coming out of a heated rivalry influenced existential crisis cause my dream and what Iβm working towards is creating things that have the same impact as HR is having on me and others right now with people who love it as much as this team does
And god I know Iβm taking the right steps to go towards that dream but it still feels so far away and jesus I just want to move to Canada and be with like minded artistic people why am I surrounded by ignorant homophobes
I hadnβt had a crying session in front of my parents like the one I had yesterday in like 5 years but the pull to the life I want to build is so strong and I know itβs my path I just canβt wait to get there and savour it I promise to myself I will