during the 1st round of the pandemic, i didn’t know but maybe a couple people who got it. in the last month, i see people every single day testing positive. this is getting scary. especially now that i live in a bigger town & it’s super populated and busy w tourists. stay safe.
the one day i wanted to feel special. when i make everyone around me feel special, bc they deserve it. i am heartbroken for that girl who just wanted to love. turning off every emotion i have now. will never go thru that again.
i don’t wanna ask for help or post about it so i’ll post it on twitter where no one will see it.. i need somebody to give a shit about me. my heart hurts. i spent my birthday alone and cried so hard my contacts fell out. i’m there for every1, dropping everything to make them..
and i don’t even want anyone to know my birthday was the worst day of my life. i’ll just get pity. when rly all i wanted was to get a call like “hey come drink w me”. i wasn’t expecting much and i still got so let down. i had no one. not 1 person. the effort i put in to every
friendship and relationship i have is now sickening. i paid for my friends dinner and drinks, and they left at midnight when i turned 21 so i walked around town by myself. got worse on the actual day. i don’t want a pity party so i’ll tell ppl i had a good time when in reality
smile. i had nobody and i still don’t. it sucks. i turned 21 so that’s cool. i realized that day that no one reaches out to me unless i reach out first. i constantly have people around me, playing music and all. constantly drink w “friends” so why was i alone on my special day?