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[eL ethEl @meyak10]

When I started my year right and it was just completely ruined! WHY??? 😭😭😭

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

Someday, I'll have my own charity that I will work on with a good business to sustain it ❣

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

Everyone used to know me as a strong and independent girl but no one knows how hard it is inside of me.I may have family and friends but I don't feel it sometimes. 😭😭😭

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

LORD, as I sleep tonight please let me dream the things I need to do. Thank you LORD! ❤❤❤

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

Today, I cried the heavy loads I have in my heart. But it wasn't enough! I want someone to be here with me to hug me and tell me "I'm here for you". 😭😭😭

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

Someone that will never talk evil behind my back.Someone that will let me realized that I'm worth it.Someone that will make me feel I'm needed and loved.Someone who doesn't need anything from me but only my presence.Someone that will make me feel the real happiness. ❤

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

LORD,please send me someone who's real to me in any direction I may face.Someone who's happy when I'm happy, sad when I'm sad.Someone who will encourage me when I feel so down. Someone who really understands every word I say.Someone who really listens to anything I will say.

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

Life is really unpredictable; the people you trust yesterday, betrayed you today.

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

It felt so heavy knowing that you were just a friend to met their needs. 💔

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

You were once used and abused, but it's okay! The help you did was always with pure intention and authenticity. ❣

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

Now, I'm crying again realizing that no one is too interested to talk to me. Maybe, that's why I'm not scared to die. ☺

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

Tears are just falling. I want to shout and cry out loud! I'm so sad and lonely. GOD, I need a hug and a call.😭😭😭💔

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

Yesterday was my birthday and I wish for a husband @ChrisEvans ... Crazy tho 😂😂😂

#fangirling
#CaptainAmerica ❤❤❤

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

I don't know if my feeling isn't right, and if it is, forgive me Oh LORD! You know how heavy the loads are. I pray for realizations ❤

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

LORD, pa hug b please 😭😭😭😭😭

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

Please help me, LORD! I need you! Please, help me to ease the pain. 😭

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

LORD, I know it's not right but I'm very hurt of what was done. I don't know how to regain the care and trust to people anymore.

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

JESUS, please give me more strength to face tomorrow. I'm giving up everything I feel to you. ❤

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

LORD! kasakiiiiiit 😭😭😭

[eL ethEl @meyak10]

Happiest Birthday Cap! ❤❤❤ @ChrisEvans