And the entire time all i wanted to do was message her. And i don't know how i managed to resist every urge i had as i hit absolute rock bottom over the past month.
This is so funny because since this happened:
1. my dog almost died and spent a week in the animal hospital, and
2. i was hospitalized (and ultimately released) with an undiagnosed unexplained GI issue.
When i said i spiraled hard, i meant it.
@ everyone who was at the GUTS tour in NYC, that got to see Olivia Rodrigo drag Noah Kahan out on stage... i hate you. i hate you all so much. fuck you. that should have been me getting that experience.
14 months without a (serious) suicidal thought. just for me to end up in the fetal position on the floor all night fighting myself to stay alive. fuck mental health issues. why the fuck do i struggle so hard when so many others are just fine.
Oh and even better, I would be using my degree, and it also has outdoor education aspects to it, which y’all know that what I used to spend every summer doing.
This decision should be easy, but like, skiing is life.
I’ve got an opportunity to take a new position where in a different arm of the entity I work for. It pays $10000 more per year than I’m making now, but I won’t be able to keep being a ski bum and skiing 4+ days a week. So do I prioritize income over skiing???
Oh but it’s actually not resolved yet because I placed the order while on the phone with them, unable to type in my own address because they use one of those ridiculous address picker maps. So now they will call UPS once it ships and have them make a new label.
(3/3)
Long story short they finally called and after 4 useless representatives I finally was able to talk to somebody who could add UNIT 8 the the shipping label. Something that it wouldn’t allow me to do when I made the order.