Growth is rarely loud or dramatic. Sometimes it looks like getting through the day, trying again tomorrow, or choosing to care for yourself even in small ways.
It’s clear now that some friendships only exist when you’re the one making the effort. When I stopped initiating, no one asked why there were no meet-ups. That says enough. This is the downside of always being available to everyone. Lesson learned: match the energy, nothing more.
December is usually full of lunches, dinners, and parties, so the silence last month stood out. I don’t mind it. I don’t have the energy to show up as much anymore. What I do mind is realizing that some people I called friends couldn’t even manage a “happy holidays.”
Di ko alam baka ako lang naman as a trentahin yung hindi na masyadong applicable yung “save the best for last” kapag kumakain kasi ang ending kapag last na, busog na ‘ko at hindi ko din makain so I need to stop overthinking and eat that taba ng bangus first. 🧓