𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn

19 ⟡ -16 dni !! 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ed diary | currently recovering ⟡.•

[𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn @miffylasagna]

i turned 19 years old today and finally got an anorexia diagnosis. i have been battling this disorder since i was 12, so thats seven years of absolute hell. ive decided to try to recover. i have had enough. #recoverytwt

[𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn @miffylasagna]

i am bmi 16.2 now!!! at 42.1 kg

[𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn @miffylasagna]

deleted all my unclothed bodychecks …

[𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn @miffylasagna]

weekly grind so hard i lowkey stopped giving a fuck about counting calories 😭 uni and work isnt for the weak

[𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn @miffylasagna]

sorry ive been inactive ive been really focusing on normal living and now im so incredibly depressed i cant put it into words!

[𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn @miffylasagna]

im bmi 16.0 rn

[𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn @miffylasagna]

im high bmi 15 now. my friends and family say they cant see the weight gain, but i can and its making me want to scream. i hate this body bcs it is NOT any more functional that my lw body, but now its just uglier

[𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn @miffylasagna]

im almost at 41 kg

[nug @imissmybraces]

i hate being on edtwt knowing im actively gaining weight when everyone else is losing

[𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn @miffylasagna]

nine hours at uni today i almost cried from the pain i was in, sitting on those chairs is literal hell, my bones hurt so bad i had tears in my eyes i dokt think j can deal with this

[wren !!! @painkilIurz]

how it feels trying to recover from anorexia while a bunch of celebrities are losing weight and everyone is constantly dieting

[𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn @miffylasagna]

+help find people who understand them i dont see how thats a bad thing? and edtwt mostly keeps to themselves on this platform we dont go out ACTIVELY seeking out attention from outsiders? and obviously there are going to be bad people JUST LIKE EVERYWHERE ELSE LITERALLY EVER !!!

[𐙚 𝐦𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐲 ꒱ in recovery rn @miffylasagna]

i hate this whole argument that edtwt is this evil place where everyone encourages each other to go deeper in their ed/makes other people develop eds. for tye most part this is a very nice and recovery supporting safe space that helps already isolated individuals+

[InternetAngel of edtwt @ari_o5]

those are the best cereals ever I could eat the whole pack in one sitting