Hey- thank u guys for posting.
This man J. Cole had a 2 hour talk with me. 2. Two!!!! Didn’t realize I was sitting on a therapist couch but ummm😩
2 days later I heard this verse & couldn’t stop crying.
The end.
In a world where we know EXACTLY how & WHEN to tear each other apart, there are still Kings & Queens who know how to put ppl back together. Patch them up. Heal them. Empower them. Understand them. Listen to them. Make them do the most beautiful thing a human being can do.
Smile.
After having #papabear I couldn’t wait for the day he’d smile @ me. First smile? It was one day when I blew a kiss @ him. I said “papa mmuuuaahhhhh!!!!” then? Time froze. Froze. He smiled? He smiled. At Me? Looking directly in my eyes? Yes.
Me? Held back the tears & just kept doing a billion more times. I cried later.
I’ve been trying to make him smile every day since…lol he actually makes me crack up laughing all the time. No idea where he got all that personality from but y’all pray for me 🥴
Anyway,
Cole…
It’s been a long time coming, but the barbz welcome you with open arms to #GagCity
We appreciate you.
We hope you stay 🤞🏽
#PinkFriday2
#LetMeCalmDown
With no time left, I called Tasha & said I can’t think of my final 8 bars & I felt so disappointed b/c I didn’t want our song to feel incomplete. She said I’m praying for you right now! This is an attack! I was like 👀 in my head I was like chiiii it ain’t gon happen!!!! But I kept remembering her saying she was praying. It kept playing in my head. As my label began having panic attacks & flipping out.
As I began becoming more & more aggravated with my whole team (b/c I was rlly mad @ myself) I just said PULL IT UP!!!! Juice & Biggz was looking at me like I was delusional AF 🤭
I went to that mic. The one in the Vogue video. With not a word on the paper. Shaking from anxiety & fear & anger & disappointment.
Then It dawned on me.
“Onika, You’re trying to rap. WHYYYYY?!?!!! Just SPEAK. speak from your heart”.
I heard a voice distinctly tell me that.
So I said into the mic “when I was 5 I got down on my knees & prayed to you”.
Then 10 mins later…after overthinking the last 2 lines a million times, I heard myself say “that’s why they can’t get me, I know that he is always with me”. I began saying no. It’s bad. It’s wrong. It’s off beat. I told Juice to nudge it to the left a bit & lower the volume a tad. Then
Chills.
Tasha & I did sit in the stu together & worked on her parts weeks b4 tho. my first 2 verses were alrdy done when I played her the song.
When I tell you I love that woman that is exactly what I mean. Ugh!!!! God you WILL get ALL THE GLORY!!!!!!
Happy Pink Friday 🎀
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This is very American of Africans. Wanting to enjoy American blackness and queerness when it benefits you while being so hateful and harmful to those same people.