I hate my dad

terrible poetry / a cry for help

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

This is a place to dump my brain. When it gets late at night, I start to think, and my therapist says that if I write what I'm thinking, it can help me understand myself. She says I shouldn't bottle it up.

I'm also an attention whore so I'm not keeping these thoughts to myself!

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

Of course I remembered
My pillow smells like you
When can I see you again?
You look so pretty
Just close your eyes for a little bit
I love your haircut!
The stars are so bright tonight
Do you want a piece of gum?

Goodnight

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

How many ways
Can I tell you "I love you" without saying the words?

Good morning
I knew you in another life
Your hand fits perfectly in mine
This song makes me think of you
Do you want my mushrooms?
I was meant to find you
How was your day?
I was destined to find you

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

I'm carving my name into its surface. If you cannot keep up with me, if you are not willing to pour your heart out as I have mine...

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

"She always loved me more than I loved her." It's ringing in my head. You meant that about her, not me, but the pulling away at my touch ever so mindlessly tells me otherwise. If it is too much, tell me so, because I will go ahead and curl into my shell for eternity.

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

I will break if I do not protect my peace. I love you with rivers running deep into my soul, my very blood aches to feel your touch, and my heart will stop when you go. But I am unique, I am something the world has never seen before and will never see again.

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

I'm glad I wasted my youth on you

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

11:23
I promise I won't text you anymore after this

Just wanted to say

I just wanted to tell you

I wish we could've

I wish you the best.

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

3:27
I got a haircut today. I think you'll like it

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

2:39
Should I bring your things over?

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

3:26
I'm making a list of all the things I want to tell you when we start talking again

Today I went out in the rain during a storm, just like we talked about doing

It was cold. I told you it would be a terrible idea

I would have liked doing it with you

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

10:42
I don't want to make it a big deal, I'm just curious

When did you start feeling this way?

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

6:54
Hey, I know we agreed we wouldn't text each other for a while. I just miss you. I hate wondering if you miss me too

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

7:29
It was great to see you today :)

I miss you so much when we're apart. Being with you makes me the happiest person alive. I'm so lucky you're still interested in me after all this time

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

1:35
Do I tell you I love you enough? If I don't then I can start texting you it more, I just didn't want to assume

But obviously I love you, it's not that I don't love you. Because I do! I just don't want to say it too much

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

10:32
Good morning!

Ignore the mess I sent last night. I was drunk I didn't know what I was saying, haha

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

The Ones I Didn't Send

[I hate my dad @mightylotus]

11:54
Hey, I know you're probably sleeping so don't feel like you need to respond immediately when you see this. But if I tell you I love you too much, let me know

I don't mean I don't love you or I love you less, I just don't want to get bored of hearing it