For the last few years I’ve felt aimless and lost when it came to League of Legends.
From the beginning of my career, I always wanted to make my job memorable.
When I look back on the years of 2021-2024 this was something that I not only worked towards, but accomplished better than almost anyone in the entire League space.
Travel climbs, challenges, tournaments, you name it; every year I could look back and name 4-5 arcs I underwent that myself and my community would remember for years to come.
However, after the NNO tournament (shortly after Brazil) and the ensuing situation that followed, things changed.
My mentality went from being one of wanting to push myself, my community, and my career to new heights…
To being one where I just didn’t care anymore.
As sad and painful as that is for me to write, it’s just the truth.
After all the dramas, public backlash, and generalized hate, it didn’t feel to me anymore like I was streaming or creating content for my community, but rather that I was just a monkey putting on a show day in day out for spectators.
Dealing with internal struggles as well didn’t help alleviate this feeling, but rather made it infinitely worse.
I stopped reading the comments on my YouTube videos, rarely tweeted, didn’t post any tiktoks, and just retreated into my shell.
Do you want to know the craziest part, though?
Even with all the signs pointing towards me having fallen off, the amount of traction that I was getting was experiencing meteoric heights.
While my main YouTube channel would get 10k views a video, my clips channels would generate 10 million views daily.
And for a while, this sustained me.
But as someone who, growing up, never felt like I really belonged to any community; the League of Legends community ended up becoming my home.
And this simple truth is the reason why numbers on a screen will never fill the void that its loss has left in my heart.
I want to love my career again.
I want to feel like I have a sense of community again.
I want to look back years from now, and be able to remember every year of my life not by the money I made, but rather the accomplishments I sought for and achieved.
And that’s why, over the next few weeks, a lot will change.
The ADC arc may have left me hardstuck D4, but it reignited my urge to leave a mark and create memories once again.
And with that, I give you 4 announcements.
Announcement 1 - The Climb
With the release of Hecarim’s new skin next week, I’ll be doing a challenge that I haven’t seen any other League creators do, ever.
Unranked to Masters, but every time I lose I gift the newest skin to my community.
To give back to my community that supported me in trying times, as well as to give myself purpose again I’ll be doing a (solo-only) challenge where every time I lose I’ll gift the newest skin to some of my viewers.
If I end up hitting masters without gifting that many, I’ll do a huge giveaway at the end, even still, as a thank you.
By the end of this post, you’ll also see how this climb also ties into my future plans.
Announcement 2 - Multi-streaming
I always said I would never multi-stream because I always thought it would take away from the viewer experience of the people that watch me on twitch.
However, after thinking about it more, I realized that a lot of people that watch me on Twitch hate my music taste.
As a result, I’ll be debuting a YouTube multistream when the climb starts that has music disabled so that people who like me but hate my music taste can still enjoy my content.
Double the chats, double the skin giveaways as well.
Announcement 3 - Partnership
One of my biggest issues has always been with caffeine.
I always felt like I needed to be entertaining and stimulated for long hours, but the issue is that I never found any solution other than preworkout/coffee.
After reaching out to several companies to try their products, I ended up finding that Gamersupps has caffeine-free options that actually work (been trying them over the last few days)
So, as a result, to fund all the future trips, potential tournaments, and to fuel my own streams, I’ll be partnering with them.
To kickstart our partnership they’ll also be matching the skin giveaways and they’ll be giving 50$ gift codes to all of the winners as well https://t.co/PClJaBpvXS if you want to check it out.
The main reason I did want to partner with them, however, is because I was told that if we got to a certain level of sales I could make any flavor I wanted…
So get ready for Yordle Semen.
Announcement 4 - Korea
The biggest reason why I want to do a real tryhard grind now isn’t just to kill time.
It’s to prepare…
For Korea.
In August (exact date to be announced) I’ll be going to Korea, once more.
In order to give myself the most amount of mental damage possible I’ll be traveling without Laura and locking myself in a room, with the camera on, 24/7.
The first 3 weeks will be the most insane tryhard run I’ve ever given any of my climbs, with the last week being a week full of IRL streams with Laura and no League when she comes down to visit.
I know this post has been a lot, but for any of you that have made it to this point I want to sincerely thank you.
Although it might sounds cliche, having people believe in me when I don’t even believe in myself is a gift that I don’t plan on taking for granted anymore.
And while everything coming up may seem exciting, I already have plans for innovative arcs that will take the scene by storm once they’re done.
For all those who may think I’ve passed my prime, you aren’t ready for what the rest of this year has in store.
@Cobratate Nice cuck mentality, Andrew Tate.
Imagine being raised with your sister for years only to have her fall in love with another man that could mistreat her.
If you really want to be a real man, you shouldn’t just FUCK your sister…
You should MARRY her.
@GiggukAZ Dan da Dan is shaping up to be another goblin slayer with how in the first episode the main ish character almost gets r**ed in the first episode boring ass trope and nothing new. Seeming a little too overhyped for a first episode
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