It’s the same date every year. Don’t let people give you the excuses as to why they can’t come to celebrate you at a meal or for a few drinks etc. They know when your birthday is. If you matter to them they’ll make sure their free/able to join you 😃
the thing i will never admit is how desperately i want to be loved, i don't think i could say it. how i want someone to hold my wrists and kiss my palms and smile at me and want me, i want to be wanted and i don't know how long poetry or songs will substitute for being wanted