i've spent so much of my life trying not to be a burden that now, even when someone says, "tell me what's wrong"
my first instinct is to protect them from the weight of me
nobody talks about how weird it is being ~kinda~ suicidal. it’s not like you plan on doing it but everything just feels heavy and exhausting and you wouldn’t mind if something happened but on the other hand you can’t go because you have pets and loved ones. do i make sense.