im slowly losing it, i wanna just end it all, why the fuck do i need to recover if he wont, hes gonna be dead b4 me and i cant live w/o him. if theres one more little bump tonight im done ๐
i seen my therapist gort the first time in 6 weeks and she yelled at me and ended up crying, it makes me realised how fucked i am, she said shes scared abt me and told me next week if im not getting better w my eating shes getting me more help. i wanna die, i cant do this