im hella scaredfor omad october, i wanna do the diet super good cuz i could probably lose liiikeeeee um 8kg prob? but i dont know if i cannnnnn omg i gotta lock in
it doesnt even feel like restricting anymore, like i physically cant eat more than that 500kcal without wanting to throw it all up and cry,,,,, anything above sounds like way too much, and i was even thinking of lowering my intake to maybe idk 400 or 300, maybe i should?
still at my dads, my mom had to rush my brother to the hospital,,,, hope hes okay!!!! ill prob be here until midnight which is pretty bad cuz i gotta wake early for school ugh i wish i could skip but my teachers will slime me out
i have a very love hate relationship with my scars😭 some days im like wanting more and others i wish my arm was clean,,,,, its so hard hiding it from my mommmmmm
i hope she doesnt think im annnoying, ive ghosted her for a few days every couple of months and she gets worried abt me,,,,, i dont know why im such a terrible friend?!!!!!????? its so stupid everything is just so stupid
i get rlly attachedso easily and think shes the best person ever i could ever met but at the same time im idk??????? the slightest thing she does that could upset meor i just think of something from the past she did i completely end up hating her tgen selfhatred replaces it