fly 🪰 (gw by dec)

(MDNF; no age, no fb) ed backup account. 24/it/he. 5’4.17” (163cm). gw: 64lbs (29kg) to 69lbs (31kg). prorecov. ‼️censored bodychecks and self-harm‼️

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

new #edtwt moot hunt!

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༝ 24 (‘02), mdnf
༝ looking for adult moots (20+ preferred!)
༝ i vent here
༝ talk to me about video games, emo music, journalling, etc.
༝ chazz princeton kinnie. princess ruto is my baby

♡/↻ to be friends :3!

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

is bmi 10 more important to me than missing out on a few months income i could be getting? yes. ill work when im allowed to recover.

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

i need a job but it needs to be ridiculously close to me Or wfh because i might pass out otherwise . i could also just not get one but . it would be nice to have a distraction from my ed thoughts . idk i might just not get one after all

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

i need to just lose weight and stop thinking about it so much. need to distract myself better. will distract myself better. i already know how to get there, i just need to get there. the days are counting down. time will pass.

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

did away with weight goals in recovery and looking at bodies at different bmi’s. i’ll get there when i get there and i’ll tackle recov step by step as it comes. i just need to get to bmi 10 first.

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

44.27kg/97.6lbs . i cant . all i see is fat and it makes so much sense to me why the most id gain to is around bmi 14s . jesus christ

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

fixing my relationship with exercise and changing how i view it and my body is a good thing to strive for . will make me more comfortable being at certain weights for sure . because i wasnt kidding earlier i would kms if i had this body again in recovery

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

i might fall down the going to the gym/focusing on cardio hole when i try to recover . i can already foresee it becoming compulsive because … duh ??? ive always dealt with an exercise compulsion within my disorder . but i think

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

@skinanach lowk doesnt mean shit

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

@skinanach this one tweet by someone in recovery triggered me so fucking bad one time especially because i dont experience the symptom of avoiding eating in front of others as severely relative to my ed . but its just . that person couldve been disordered too . them eating food in public

[Dr. Now of 🍽️twt @skinanach]

friendly reminder that just. because. you. see. someone. eat. doesnt. mean. they. suddenly. dont. have. an. ed.

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

@starveswirl ive always been so caught off guard by these bc like . how tf am i supposed to remember why i blocked someone months ago idk but u probably made me mad or im just trying to protect myself like 😭💔

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

@puke0cal i have one moot ive met irl from edtwt and its actually nice talking to someone face to face who really understands

[(☆▽☆) @connectionfear]

liking all my oomfs tweets but not in an “i like that” way but an “i see. u are heard” way

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

@strvedfqwn i just dont think they should be posting it to be honest. i think a lot of ‘recovery influencers’ should not be posting that shit

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

she doesnt have an ounce of compassion for me and you can tell. there’s no concern in her voice or speech. if she brings it up pretending to be concerned its really only to receive validation that i *should* be spending time with her and poor her . her own son hates her guts .

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

my mom is being annoying about my eating but i know its more about me fucking ignoring her and hating eating in front of her than the possibility i dont receive adequate intake

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

february …

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

CHAZZ PRINCETOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[fly 🪰 (gw by dec) @minecraftstevia]

kirby breath of the wild im actually hyped for that