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documenting my struggles

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ok today she's probably gonna break up with me for sure

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shes gonna break up with me, calling it now

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Cried over a girl

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i want to fucking sleep forever

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things were good for a long while until about 3 weeks ago

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i think i need to cry to feel better but the question is when

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the trouble in me has been present lately

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I can't fucking believe I have to accept this new development in my reality

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I have the worst fucking luck. Life doesn't give you a break. I truly feel like I'm the only person who fucks up as often as I do. Today I realised I fucked up in a major way and the odds of my fucking up were so low but I still managed to do it.

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I haven't tweeted here a lot in the past months and its truly reflective of how decent things have been in the second half of this year. Even now things are ok but I guess it hasn't been great since I feel the need to tweet something here today.

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why go on, i dont wanna be here

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i don't wanna live anymore

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im a loser and i always have been and there's not much i can do and im too old to be this way. My last 6 months or so have been pretty good but for longest time, ive been avoiding reality and im terrified that one day it's gonna all catch up with me

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I hope I die young

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I was doing pretty well emotionally for about six weeks. Making myself busy, being productive, watching netflix shows I like.

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I've come down. I don't know how long this will last this time. Hopefully not long. Happiness is impossible for me.

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I've been a loser all my life for so many different reasons. I really hope I end young

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I hate so much that I have to be alive

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I'm just tired

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Cried on the 9th four days ago on Monday. Days without crying: 2̶9̶❌ 04✅ That's the third time this year