I just want to be understood but I think they will never like ever realize that one. It was always a one sided understanding. It was always me who needs to understand what they want, I will never be understood.
I do love my parents but sometimes I wonder if they also feel the same way for me. I was always wrong, not enough, being compared and a total bullsh*t into their eyes. For them all I do is a crap.
But still you didn't understood me, or who I am orwhat I want. All you want is what you think is right for me. I do understood that parents knows best but please let me also decide on my own.
All my life I've been obeying your orders, your expectations yet it's still not enough. I wanted to explore to take risks yet I choose to obey, choose to behave, choose what you want.
I do understand their point that "as long as I'm living on the same roof with my parents I need to obey or meet their conditions" but please spare me some freedom even just an inch of it.