Gray

sometimes the only light you'll need is from the bright smile of the person sitting next to you

.hs. 2nd year. anime club.

[Gray @mjeyji]

I've awoken from a dream. I dream I remember vividly. Now it's time to get up and keep it as one of those lovely memory.

[Gray @mjeyji]

Today, I took a glimpse again.

I didn't feel anything but pure amusement to a stranger.

I'm glad. It's been so long. It is time I move on

[Gray @mjeyji]

I don't have anyone to talk to.. And it's getting harder.

[Gray @mjeyji]

What's the easiest way to forget? I act like I'm all healed but I just patched things up so well

[Gray @mjeyji]

Note to self : please stop looking... It's been months. Please stop.

[Gray @mjeyji]

Maybe.. Itkk be better if I leave this world.. There won't be pain anymore.. Maybe I could Bury memories too.

[Gray @mjeyji]

There are just times I feel alone despite everyone around

[Gray @mjeyji]

I laid my heart out in the open again. And now I feel like retreating behind thick walls once more

[Gray @mjeyji]

I started crying at night again.. That just sucks

[Gray @mjeyji]

Another day of this shit. I hate how... I just... Want to end things rn. I wanted to be strong. But suddenly I feel so weak and alone... I just.. I just don't want to face any problems rn.

[Gray @mjeyji]

You worry me... You'll be leaving your safe zone... I hope you stay safe. Hope you start being mature. Heed my advices even when I was being a hard ass realist. I know I said it in really harsh ways but... That's reality.. And I was trying to guide you. Hwaiting

[Gray @mjeyji]

Erasing memories... I've never done that... Even when they hurt.. Because somehow, somewhere along the line.. There was a time those memories were precious and would make me feel warm and smile like an idiot.

[Gray @mjeyji]

Feels like I was drunk last night... What's this mess that I did?

[Gray @mjeyji]

Day by day... I'm trying to be okay.. I may look happy and uncaring.. But deep within... I'm still suffering.

[Gray @mjeyji]

When I said I was tired.. I was tired of the push and pull.. I was tired of the fighting... But I never meant for you to give up...

[Gray @mjeyji]

In here... All my confessions will lie.. Probably until I can't feel anything anymore

[Gray @mjeyji]

I miss you... I can't stop my tears... It hurts thinking that you've already forgotten... But I know you need your freedom.. That's why I don't reach out to you. Even when I'm itching to say it. I still.. Love you

[Gray @mjeyji]

I miss you.. I still do.. But I don't have the guts to say it to you. I still look... I still search for you... I still watch you from afar. And just.. Keep hurting myself. I know you won't see this... I would just like to say it out somehow