javi said he was angry at julian for finding a path outside of football while he felt stuck and stagnant in something he couldn’t let go of because of his love for it, despite how draining it was. the passion that once drove him now suffocated him, in spite of not wanting to move on because of how ingrained it was into his very existence. but since anya drove herself into his life (3.5 hours late), the love and passion he had for football stopped being all-consuming. he found a new way to love something he had held dear because it was now tied to something that made it lighter, easier to bear.
if anchors hold something to shore, the wind carries you away and makes you weightless. anya was both the wind that pushed javi to pursue his dreams and what made his passion weightless again. like how javi said he enjoyed training with anya because it reminded him of his childhood with juls, when nothing was at stake and it was all just for fun. he wasn’t the future of philippine football, javier uy; he was just her javi. anya helped his home feel like home again until he eventually concluded that anya became the home.
throughout the main story, javi kept mentioning what wasn’t his dream. it wasn’t being on the national team or being the mouthpiece of some organization; he just wanted to play while being himself and feeling like himself. anya brought back that part of him, you know? football stopped feeling like a chore and started to feel free again, alive.
this unstoppable, constantly accelerating force of nature that is javi uy .… his natural ending was happiness. the natural close to his story was happiness and to have it all as a reward for his patience and hard work. he now knows his path was always meant to include football, but with new life breathed into it. football stopped consuming and it started giving. in some way, football gave him anya. the former dream yielded the future one.
javi said he was excited to go back to spain to learn how to love football again, but i think he already learned how to love it again when it was touched by anya. doomed no more to search for peace in opm and filipino restaurants, not when he can do it all right by her side. they finally have a chance to make up for the time that wasn’t initially afforded to them!
like how the needle of a compass always finds true north, javi uy always finds home in the shape of anya wui. to javi’s chest not hurting when he thinks of anya; to javi’s day never being ruined because his sign of life is two hours away; to javi’s sunlight, dream, and home sleeping soundly next to him; and to belonging where anya is. they both finally found their equilibrium! from one extreme to another, meeting at a kinder place in time, anya pushed out of her inertia by javi just as much as he was pushed out of his by anya.
javi said “there’s dreams in manila too anya”, but i like to think that he now means “there’s dreams in manila too: anya” :)
i’ll miss my uywui :( it was a pleasure to know the both of you ❤️🩹
can we get na pd to do the all nct units activity plz i love the nct sports day but i feel like na pd would do it much more justice can we plz start a petition or smth
“i would kill for you.” “i would die for you.”
well i would heal for you. i’d unlearn my toxic patterns, face my wounds, and become a healthier person so my love doesn’t hurt you