If you want to change, you have to become conscious of your unconscious patterns. You have to catch yourself in the act of being the old self. And then you have to choose differently. Not once. A thousand times. Until the new choice becomes the new default.
people always ask me how i maintain such a positive outlook and the honest answer they rarely like to hear is that it takes intention to be a positive person. it takes a certain stubbornness, an insistence upon inspiring yourself over and over again, a deliberate choosing of prettier thoughts that will actively organize your rendering of reality around hope and gratitude rather than scarcity and cynicism. it’s an act of defiance, almost. an unwillingness to surrender.
hardest thing for me to grasp as an adult is you have to keep showing up no matter how you feel. you gotta do this shit sad, do it heartbroken, do it grieving, do it tired. life doesn’t care, it waits for nobody, you just have to keep going.
I want to be loved without uncertainty. I want someone who's proud to choose me, who can't stop thinking about me and doesn't hide it. Someone who's excited to see me, tells their friends about me, and makes me feel wanted in every possible way. I want someone who desires me just as deeply as I desire them.