*engaging in a creative activity that i love and enjoy* FUUUUCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!! IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
attending gamedev meetings feels like watching my parents fight cause everyone is muted except our art and programming lead who just argue with each other for an hour
i lowkey think ab kms every day and while i think it’s mainly a mental coping mechanism like “i don’t feel good and like i can’t control Anything but at least i have This” it kinda fucked up that that’s the only way i know how to live