Documenting my journey from now on. Let it be proof I don’t need to slave at some corporate job just live.
Reviewed some professional resumes I’m supposed to copy…
Made me realize I’m not built for this white collar stuff. Time to go balls to the walls. I know it will work
Life cycle of a profitable trader:
Year 1 - studying 47 indicators, taking 30 trades a day, wondering why nothing works.
Year 2 - strips it back, picks 3 tickers, still losing but starting to see patterns.
Year 3 - first consistent month. Tells everyone. Sizes up. Gives it all back.
Year 4 - shuts up, goes quiet, does the work alone.
Year 5 - withdrawing every week, routine locked in, boring as hell.
Year 6 - people start asking what you do for a living.
Year 7 - retires his parents.
Year 8 - lives life on his terms. Nobody saw it coming except him.
Only real trades today. Not on the tilted acc which is blown. THIRD time I’ve blown an account close to payout…
Goes to show I’m rushing trying to get a payout.
I wouldn’t take even half of those trades on my other accounts bc they’re far from payout.
I NEED BETTER COMPOSURE
Losses put me in fight mode. I feel pain and it hurts my conviction.
I take too much ownership of wins and losses. Not my behavior.
I’m so pressured by not working a job and it leads to unnecessary pressure.
I need to slow down and not neglect my life off the charts.
Tilted again
Woke up not wanting to trade. I took a loss & kept saying “fuck me I knew I shouldn’t have touched anything”. Then it becomes “fuck it I already made a mistake so let me just keep going and fix it”.
None of that has anything to do with the model.
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BE, BE, -1 R, 2R , 2R
$nq
3 R
Going back on my rule I made yesterday. It doesn’t make sense to log off just because of break evens.
It doesn’t mean price action is total trash. I just have to stay composed and not get pissed off about it. If I’m pissed I log off…
Every blown account I've analyzed starts the same way.
Overtrading.
Not the day you overtrade - but what you do after.
Here's the pattern that destroys accounts (and how I finally broke it):
Getting close to the payout target is where I tweak out. Too focused on the outcome.
There’s no reason to adjust size, try to always finish green, capture “early” entries for higher RR, or push my edge.
The good trades are so easy… they just respect framework. Focus on easy.
Need to increase risk to make more… not try to be green everyday to make more.
I need to be more accepting of losing days… stopping is always the best choice.
Yes sometimes my second trade can recover a loss… but having the mindset the next one will pay off is gambling.
New rule is walk away after 2 trades no matter if they’re break even or losses.
Every decision I make spends mental capital even if I’m break even in the end.
So my decisions will continue getting poorer if I don’t log off.
If I do any more than this I’m pushing too hard.
Tilted. I had a feeling I should’ve stopped trading after 2 BE and a loss.
Fought for the payout. Too obsessed with outcomes.
I was focused on the money and not my process.
Executing on the 1 min, which I don’t usually do. Just for the sake of RR.
Traded with a poor mental.
@tradertheory It’s hard to recognize how much you went through, and realize you truly deserve the reward.
Money is made so fast it doesn’t feel real. It felt more real when I was blowing up accounts. Crazy paradox.