monaco ♡

she/her ⋆ 22 ⋆ kpop/edtwt ⋆ us →日本 ⋆ bmi 17

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

#edtwt intro bc i’m new here !

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monaco, she/her, 22

⊹ ednos
⊹ fearnot, orbit, my, reveluv (+ more!)
⊹ american living in japan
⊹ kimchi & frozen mango lover fr
⊹ dni: shtwt, <18, anti-recovery, etc.

drop a ♡ if you wanna be moots :)))

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

saw my mom for the first time in four months. she looked like she was about to faint she had to hold onto her head and the counter and she started saying “you don’t look okay” i feel so bad dude

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

someone tonight told me “you look starving” as a joke and i asked them to elaborate and they said “well you kinda do” and since i was drunk instead of having a normal response i started tearing up and said “how did you know i am” with my voice shaking HELP LMFAO

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

first time getting this comment from non-family !!! 🥳🎉

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

it’s the consistency of the behavior that will make you lose weight.

it’s also the consistency of the behavior that will make you gain weight.

you can’t possibly fuck it up in a day or two.

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

got to a point where i can binge in front of people and they just ask themselves “how the hell is she so skinny and eats that much?”

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

i’m gonna wear the tiniest top and the miniest shorts to the club tonight WE DOWN TO TWO DIGITS IN LBS BABY LET’S GOOO

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

@tinsmiu okay skinny girl 🙄

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

@HoneycrispEDTWT honestly it’s scary but kinda sexy ngl like i get compliments so maybe it helps if you look at it that way 😭

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

does anyone else get these damn arm veins??? like why do i look so scary

[yeji @pwppyhrts]

ch43ry30ng i reposted bcs tbh all the photos show her thigh gap n her arms r small 😭

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

vyvanse 🫶

[el ₊ ⊹ ୨ৎ @el10ve]

appetite suppressants go!

i’ll start: caffeine

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

@_strved_ probably not helpful in this situation rn but these bags of yukgaejang soup that you can order online are 150 calories but they genuinely feel like at least 400 when i eat them. they have a good amount of beef and veggies and the flavor is amazing.

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

there’s this idea that people struggling with eating disorders are constantly insecure and hate their bodies but i went to the beach with all my girl and guy friends in a bikini and for the first time in years i felt comfortable and confident in my body

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

losing weight is so non-linear and oftentimes feels arbitrary. like i ate so much these past few days yet somehow i hit my lw today

[‧˚꒰ liz 🌙 ୭ ˚. @lizziessdiary]

is it just me that gets jealous or annoyed when irls have an ed like thats my thing..

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

my korean friend just complimented my body. i feel like that means way more coming from her than from my american friends 😍 like y’all’s standards are crazy i wanna fit that so bad tysm 🤩

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

what are some clothing pieces that you feel make you look skinny vs. pieces that you feel make you look bigger?

for me, i used to think tops like the one on the left made me look skinnier than the style on the right, but now i realized it’s sooo the opposite

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

@starvingwr3tch i estimate 100 calories for 100 grams and this was 400 grams

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

going on a run instead of attending class because i ended up eating both halves of a 400 calorie sweet potato for breakfast… i am best ednos girl yet

[monaco ♡ @monakette]

yesterday i saw le $$er@f1m in concert and let me tell u there’s nothing more crushing than feeling pretty then realizing idols are real humans that roam this earth bc what do u MEAN their bodies are this tea ???